Missunderstood (By Myself, No Less...)

So many things that I wanted to do, yet I haven't even started on them. I truly mean to throw myself into it all and do things the way I see them in my mind. But somehow I just don't have the energy, or I find myself doing something else. I don't know if it's just that I don't have the discipline...I'm not sure what it is. But I know something has to change. I have to get out. I have to get an idea, I have to get a clue. I need to go someplace quiet and think. I hate being so directionless and unfocused and uninspired! It is something I want to do with all of my heart but...am I afraid to try? What are the consequences if I don't? What are the consequences if I do? I need to pinpoint what it is exactly that is keeping me from doing what I love and living my life the way I imagine it could be.